Insanity

Let me preface this by saying that I have ALWAYS wanted to be a stay at home mom. I am VERY thankful to have the opportunity to be home with my beloved son and spend as much time as I can with him while he is young. I now that there are many woman who would love to be in my shoes and think things like "if I stayed home my house would be spotless b/c I would have all the time in the world to clean" I thought this before I started my career as a SAHM. It just isn't the case I have several other SAHM friends and we all complain about the same things. It is not easy juggling all your responsibilities of woman, mother, wife, cook and maid. Inevitably something gets a little less attention than it should. For me it is maid.....

I am going to go ahead and throw this out there...I am NO neat freak. I HATE cleaning. I tell my husband all the time "I am a GREAT stay at home mom. William is taken care of every second of the day. I am a HORRIBLE house wife" :) I hate cleaning, all of it, vacuuming, dishes, laundry, dusting, windows, floors, bathrooms etc. etc. etc. Here is my problem with cleaning. While I hate cleaning I hate having a dirty house just as much. The cleaning is never done and as soon as you get done cleaning something it is dirty again. This frustrates me to no end!!

I wake up in the morning to the dishes that were not done the night before, I put them in the dish washer (which is honestly just a dish sanitizer b/c it cleans NOTHING. If there is even one speck of food on the dish when it goes in it will be there when I take it out.). If it is full of clean dishes then they have to be put away before the dirty dishes can be put in. Now that that is done more dishes accumulate throughout the day. 

SOOO though out the day I am dealing with said dishes. Sometimes I am good and will put the dirty dishes in the dishwasher as soon as we are done with them. But, to be honest most of the time I don't. I have other things to tend to. e.g. cleaning what ever William has decided to spill/pour/throw/drop onto the floor, dirty diapers, sorting the laundry, folding the latest load of laundry that is now dry, making meals, cleaning up the meals, all the while my beloved son in holding onto my leg/skirt/shirt/pants etc screaming for me to hold him, play with him, give him a big hug or kiss his boo boo. He also loves to "help" me with my cleaning which inevitably ends up being more work for me.

Now we are at the end of the day and the clothes that were just cleaned have been cleaned again, and the dishes that were clean this morning have now collected in the sink again and once again I have to clean the table, floor and kitchen so that I can cook dinner so that the table, kitchen, floor and dishes can get dirty again and AGAIN be cleaned!!!!  

The definition of insanity if doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result. I have decided that this is just madness and it must stop!! 

So, beware if you come to my house this summer...I have decided that we will become raw food eating/barefoot/nudists/who only eat with their hands. This should free up enough time for me to vacuum, dust and clean the bathrooms! :)